I hav nothing to say...............

Again I didn't eat anithing since the last post...... I did however drink up the wazooo! Had a nice fk session and then watched a movie I will weigh myself in the morn.

I am terribly angry I need inspiration I tried to show gabos just how seductive I can be and I get rejected aaaaahahh I hate it!!!!!! And to top it of b&b were totally boring today noooooo interest for me today
I went toeat and halfway to eating I puked it al out!!! Its a sign!! I need to continue this fasting

With all the stresst going on today it was a breeze not eating today.... I even remembered to take all my vitamins and now I need to allow myself some calorie intake that has calcium since I'm not consuming food and taking ibuprofen for my pains I am weaking my bones so if I hurt myself with a tmble or leasure it won't go well. I'm scared as much as I am not scared but tomorrow I get to weigh myself and c if things are going well I expect at least 5lbs per week if not more. I really forced myself to do things today even tho I felt weak tru the whole day I think a lot had to do with lack of sleep. I will be sleeping well tonight so I expect better performance tomarow.

I didn't post yesterday because my friend begged me to eat yesterday and so I did I hav no idea wat my calorie intake was much less fat and carb consumption nor sugars or proteins. I suk I'm an idiot I will now have to fast for 7 strait days

Today I allowed myself 120 calorie intake mostly to combat the acidic liquids I've beek having to deal with in the morning. And it hels with the nausea. I'm ok with this 120 cals a day is definitely better than over 2000! Anyday. I am drinking lots o water keeping hydrated ^_^ plus all the dancing iv been doing is great exercise. I'm having lots o fun. No hunger pains today or even the feeling of hunger so I'm very hapeee and proud of that I can't help myself I still weigh 254lbs but maybe if I exercise more it will go down. Thers gotta be a difference in weight within the next few days thers just gotta. Otherwise I'm gonna go insane....

monday 1:33 am

So I allowed myself 50 calories of consumption today and feel like a failure I couldn't hold the hunger pains and anyway I still have them so it was a total waste of calorie intake if it only made my hunger grow.....
After day 5 of fasting I am really starting to feel the effects around my tummy, chest, and throat. I can't seem to feel sleepy at the right times tho I was sleepy earlier and slept a lil but could not stay asleep then finally when I was totally awake that's when gabos decides to go to sleep ugh well I couldn't go to sleep so I stay up play a game for a while and now I'm trying to get into bed but am still quite awake, however I know I am doing well because I actually was able to keep the place decent so now maybe if I continue this way this place will kickass in just a few days ^_^
Can't wait to see results in two more days....
I am still proud of myself

ok today is a little different i still feel hungry but im just ignoring it the thing is that today i have hunger pains......
im trying to look up info on wat to do
wat i found:
"the hunger actually hurts at first but with time you get used to it you eventually accept hunger as part of needing and wanting to be slim"
and:
it takes about a week of strict starvation to get used to it and it wont hurt anymore

so.....
im optimistic
today is day 5 so i got 2-3 days to go

saturday february 26

one of the first things i did was weigh my self i hadnt weighed myself since wednesday

the scale read 254lbs!!!!!!!!
ha haha ha
i AM SOOOOOOO HAPEEEEE!!!

i havent eaten anything except coffee

so far it helps me supress hunger and speeds up metabolism
i am also starting to take vitamins to keep up my energy
and taking a slimming pills as well
i feel really good about this
no pains yet but i can definitely feel the hunger
there is no way i am giving in after those results
if i keep loosing lbs this fast i will be at my goal in no time ^_^
and as i see results it will giv me inspiration to keep goin

i weighed myself....... it was at 275lbs i have been at a plateau for about 5-6yrs now never getting past 300lbs but never getting under 250lbs either
i am completely sick and tired of being this way i feel like my body is not my own i act and feel a certain way but as soon as i happen to pass by my reflection anywhere or c my shadow i become confused THAT IS NOT ME!!!!!!! i have no idea what i have been waiting for to lose this weight
i know i gained it during my depression but I'm the only one who can make a change in the matter
i guess i have been waiting for a certain somebody to give me the courage, the inspiration, and the will power to begin the journey to being healthy

well i am waiting no longer for any help... i am doing this completely by myself
\i am going pro ana
i dont care what anybody thinks
i once went over it and thought maybe i can tweak it so i wont starve myself but definitely use the tips they do to suppress hunger and gain will power

well.....
today ( feb 23) is my first day

All Things to Be

Be long suffering to your enemies.
Be loyal to your friends.
Be strong enough to face each day.
Be humble enough to know you cannot do everything alone.
Be generous to those who need your help.
Be wise enough to know that you do not know everything.
Be willing to share your joys.
Be willing to share the sorrows of others.
Be the first to congratulate your friends' success.
Be the last to criticize a brother who fails.
Be loving to those who love you.
Be loving to those who do not love you, and they may change.
Above all, be yourself.

A woman was looking at some agate rocks in Arizona. She picked one up observing the many slices of agate, she held it up to the light to admire its beauty. Eventually a sales woman went over to her and asked her if there was anything in particular she was looking for. "No" said the woman, "I am just enjoying looking at these pieces of agate because I realize that it was by means of pressure and fire that these thing of such incredible beauty were created. You see, I have been going through some very severe trials in my life, and by looking at these pieces of agate, I realize that it is by means of the pressures of life and fires of tribulation that God will create something beautiful in me and for me."

Senior Health Care Solution!

So you're a senior citizen and the government says no more health care for you, what are you going to do?
Our plan gives anyone 65 years or older a gun and 4 bullets. You are allowed to shoot 2 senators and 2 representatives. Of course this means you will be sent to prison.
There you will get 3 meals a day, a roof over your head, and all the health care you need! New teeh, no problem. Need glasses, great. New hip, knees, kidney, lungs, heart? All covered.
And who will be paying for all of this? The same government that just told you are too old for healthcare. Plus because you are a prisoner, you don't have to pay any income taxes anymore!

IS THIS A GREAT COUNTRY OR WHAT!?